Wake me up, I've had enough.

3 more days of high school

Seriously how is this even happening?  
I didn’t get any of the shit done I was supposed to get done this weekend, total lack of motivation.  
This weekend sucked by the way.   

Sappy post

Today is my last Monday of high school.  
Last.  
How weird is that.  
I’ve lived here my entire life, gone to school with the same people my entire life and the fact that it is ending in just a few weeks is ridiculous.  

8 more days of classes. 
16 more days until graduation.  

Damn you for making me feel like this.  God dammit. I’m such an idiot.  
Blaming you makes me feel better even though I know I am the one responsible for how I feel.  But seriously though, this feeling, it’s not fun.  I don’t like it, I don’t like it one bit.  

Would it be wrong of me to start packing for Florida?
Unfortunately I have to wait until August to move.  Why can’t it be tomorrow? I’m going INSANE.  

I just want a pug, the beach and my friends.  

Usually when someone knocks on your bedroom door you open it right so you can have a conversation face to face right?
Apparently people don’t do that anymore.  
I’m done trying, my life is going to be a lot easier actually and a lot happier having barely any contact with you.

I totally thought I would be dead by now, what a let down this life has been.   

Saving my breath.

Please, please. please make it more obvious that you just tuned me out. PLEASE.
Good freaking lord.  
It’s like I’m already gone.  
I know moving is going to be difficult because I won’t have anyone to talk to but here I am with people to talk to, with people to listen to me yet NOBODY IS.  I’m talking to myself.  I would rather be sitting in my apartment talking to a wall than talking to someone who isn’t even listening, I’m expecting too much from people.  

3 months till I move to Florida.  I can do this.   

Is it okay that I don’t like the word ” feminism” or “feminist” or anything along those lines?  
To me it all just has negative connotations.  When I think “feminist” or whatever I just think of a society hating, man hating woman.  I don’t know.  
I know it means “equal rights for men and women” but to me I just automatically think “negative” /rant

Yess. 
My dad let me stay home from my morning class because today there was an assembly which was pointless. I woke up at 8, too early but I still got to sleep in.
T’was nice.  Now I’ve got school.  Bye.  

My Uncle just called me.  
Apparently I’ve got a puppy waiting for me once I move to Florida.  That makes me feel better, no freaking joke.  I now know that I won’t be completely and totally alone, just slightly.  He couldn’t get rid of it so he’s keeping it for me. 

I am about to freak out.  Taking deep breaths isn’t helping me at all.  
Womp womp womp. 

Scared out of my effing mind.

So I had just gotten into bed when I heard this really loud noise downstairs, so I get up and go downstairs.  My sister is like going into the bathroom and I ask her if she heard something, she said yes then she’s like ” The blinds for the window in the bathroom are in the bathtub?” So I’m like ” The effff? Check to see if the window is locked.” It is.  We go upstairs so I can get my phone and so she can pee and grab like a poll or whatever to hit the person with. In this time we are laughing hysterically because we’re so scared.  I actually started to cry a little bit just because it’s like what the hell is going on, it’s late at night what is this? So we go back downstairs, I check to see if the front door is locked.  The mother effer is unlocked.  At this point I’m like shitting bricks okay.  So my sister and I laugh so more and then I want to die some more and then she finally wakes my dad up.  We ask him if he took the blinds off of the window and put them in the bathtub, he gets up and explains to us how the blinds probably fell into the bathtub.  I am so scared right now I will not be sleeping.  I hope you enjoyed this story.  

It’s spring break.

So the next like what, 2 months (holy eff) are going to fly by…
I graduate in 2 months you guys. Is this even real right now?

Hey woah time change right?
I’m so confused now!  

Ouch.  When the people that always said ” I won’t change once I get a boyfriend.” actually change when they get a boyfriend.  Who are you again?