5 minutes though…
This is the 2nd time in the last 2 weeks my father has woken me up 5 minutes before I actually have to wake up for school. No, just no.
I have 3 days left of school and I would like to enjoy every second of sleep thank you very much.
I am in love with you.
Ed Sheeran - You Need Me, I Don’t Need You
I feel like this is going to be my song for this summer.
Austin Gibbs-Young At Heart
Oh my god. Now my dad is telling me ” Maybe you shouldn’t move to Florida. It’s a huge life change, the first few years after high school is tough, you have a great group of friends, you have us here too..”
Really dad? REALLY? Now you say something before when I was talking about it you’re like ” Geeee what a great idea” now you’re like ” No, don’t do it.”
I’m doing this because.
1. I unfortunately haven’t died yet.
2. I’ve made such a big deal about it and I want to prove to everyone and myself that I can handle this.
3. I need to get away from here.
4. Ohio isn’t for me.
5. I like Florida, except the bugs…
Damn you for making me feel like this. God dammit. I’m such an idiot.
Blaming you makes me feel better even though I know I am the one responsible for how I feel. But seriously though, this feeling, it’s not fun. I don’t like it, I don’t like it one bit.
The Beatles - Here Comes the Sun
Little darling, it’s been a long cold lonely winter
Little darling, it feels like years since it’s been here
(via shannonwdnsdy)
Mother’s day is tomorrow.
Taking the time to say how much I miss you.
I guess I’ve come to terms with you being gone because I have no other choice. I denied it for so long and it finally hit me that you aren’t coming back. Some days are worse than others but over all I think I’m okay, or at least I’ve convinced myself that I am.
I’ll admit sometimes I come home and I’ll think that you’re here and I’ll get so excited because I get to tell you all about my day then I walk inside the house and you aren’t here. Or I’ll wake up and peek into your bedroom and find it empty and it hurts. It hurts so bad knowing that I will never see your face again, or hug you or hear your sweet voice tell me that you “love me more”.
Ever since you passed a piece of me has been missing and I know it’ll never be the same without you.
I’m trying my best to make you proud mommy.
I love you mom, butterfly kisses. <3
This void…
Sometimes it would be really nice to have someone to talk to.
Sometimes it would be really nice if someone actually cared.
Would it be wrong of me to start packing for Florida?
Unfortunately I have to wait until August to move. Why can’t it be tomorrow? I’m going INSANE.
I just want a pug, the beach and my friends.
